Don’t Blink. Blink and the next thing you know life has
somehow fast forwarded with out you even being aware of it.
Its April. The last time I posted… well I’m not even sure
when that was (sorry!). How did that happen?
March has come and gone, quietly marking the anniversary of
a few life changing events… for me at least. And, I would be amiss not to share
them here.
In March 2009 I lost my Grandma who, outside of my mom and
my sister I was probably more close to then most of my family members. Just two
weeks later I lost my mare Katie.
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| Last Christmas with my Grandma |
Katie was one of those once in a lifetime horses. More
significant, maybe, because she was my first horse. She was just a little bay Quarter Horse, but during our 18+
year partnership she taught me how to ride and a whole lot more about what it
means to be human, to love, and to build a partnership.
She was thrown away by her humans , left to starve, and
landed in my life at a time when I needed her even more then she needed
me. On the day I found out my mom
had paid to buy her from the people who’d left her to starve and she was mine I
remember brushing the skinny, muddy little horse and wrapping my arms around
her. I promised her I’d never let anyone else hurt her. I promised her she’d
always be with me and I kept that promise despite many hard times and life
transitions.
She was small, with an unclear past, and at times a giant
attitude and a big buck, but she was mine and somehow we found a bond and a
partnership that lasted almost 2 decades.
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| Katiedid 2005 |
It was also in March/April of 2005 that I started leasing my
current partner in crime Rio and it was in March of 2008 that I bought him. He
wasn’t my first horse, but he was the first horse that I’d sought out, bonded
with, intentionally bought by myself no help, no intention to sell on to
someone else, not a rescue, not my sister’s horse or a friends horse… A really big, grown up decision. Somehow
despite moves, and changes, and job losses, and school, and life struggles
we’ve made it to our 9 year mark together and I pray every day that he will
always be with me and that I will always be able to be there for him in the way
that I was for Katie.
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| Rio at 6 years old 2005 |
In March 2012 my niece was born making me an Aunt. And, GOD,
I never knew I could love someone so much. She is the most amazing little girl
with so much personality, and I hope that I will always be able to be there for
her.
A year later in March my nephew was born… he is so much like
my sister… who despite our occasionally turbulent relationship and differing
opinions is probably my favorite person on this Earth…. Shhh don’t tell her
that. He’s going to be such a
sweet caring little boy if you can pinpoint a kid’s personality at only a year
old. He’s so smart, and so handsome. I hope that he stays his sweet, out going
self.
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| Liam & Aunt Sammy |
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| Evelyn Rose & Aunt Sammy |
I hope that all the ups and down’s of life don’t change who
they are inside right now, the way life has a tendency to do to most people.
It was March of last year that I started taking lessons with my most amazing trainer which has changed the way I ride. I've learned more in one year then I have in more then 20 years experience.
So it seems March is destined to be full of so many
memories… good and bad for me… what is the saying… in like a lion out like a lamb?
March this year hasn’t proven to be much different. This
year I’m at a cross rode trying to decide on some career changing choices and
hopefully put myself in a better position financially and tackle some demons
that I’ve been hiding from for a while now…. Through it all my Pony has kept me
sane.
I hope that through all the changes and choices I make this
year that I’m able to continue to keep Rio in my life, and to grow with him.
We have grown so much in the last year and I hope to find
time to share more about that in the next few days. If you read my blog, and
you’re still with me after a sever month hiatus… stay tuned!
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| Rio March 2014 |
